byez yy

so fast, yy is already at Perth. hope everything is fine over there for her... jia you my girl!

was thinking quite abit just now, i am calculating the amount of money i need to pay back for my uni. not only the school fees, but also my daily expenses, transportation etc... add up to be quite a big sum of money. i once said, i wun wan my family to support me, and i mean it. alot of money are already used up for my polytechnics fees, and this uni studies is wat i wan to continue, i dun wan to bring in extra burden for my family anymore. i have been spending alot the past few years. although i am always working part time, my saving is not piling up. the more i earnt, the more i will spend. i think its time to really save up, esp for now, need to plan to repay the loans asap. the longer i drag, the more amount of interest i need to pay. not a wise choice.

i am not born with a golden spoon, instead born with a wooden chopsticks. my life has been peaceful, but the older i grow, the clearer i can see. my parents are really getting old, yet everyday they are waking up earlier den me to go to work. sometime mummy will complain to me about how tiring is the job. i always tell her 'whats the point to complain? 1 day i will earn alot of money and open a shop for you to handle. what you need to do is to collect money' i knew i am dreaming, but actually from the bottom of my heart how i wish i can really do that. i realise my mum is getting thinner. i am already 20, yet still need her to support me and worry about me. try to turn back, i really dun know how much i have done for my mum. working part time is actually meant to lighten her burden. end up spending more myself.

i am not a lucky person, 4D or toto is nv meant for me. so i believe, hardwork is the only way to help me achieve my targets.

i tell myself, nothing to be afraid of. just need to smile and move on! i will go get a part time job after i settle my uni timetable, and earn myself my expenses, try to lighten my family burden as much as possible. mayb this may not make a huge different but i will try! so ppl, try to pull me away when u see me buying some useless stuffs or eating expensive food k? i believe i can do it de. the next 4 years will be a good one :)

smile-be-myself