still young, why not packed it up?~

안녕~

went to wgsssb alumni winds concert EXPRESSION~

considered a quite short concert..
saw alot of old pals... whether remember or not..
and of cos a lot of young ppl..

after the band started playing... i got a mixed feeling...
part of me is proud to be one of them or rather once part of them... another part is sad that i didnt continue what i started with.. what WE started with.
to be the first patch, we started everything.... its like our baby..
but... as we grow, we got other commitment to be.. we needa let go of the baby and let the others nurture it..
suddenly how i wished i am sitting with them at the front... holding my clarinet and keepin up with the running notes..
they played the piece that i always wanted to..

good to see them playing... esp my generation of ppl... esp ah pek...
his 10 years... this is then call PASSION.
how many of us can make out for it out of the busy schedule?
i don't know the other, but me.. i knew i failed in this part.
heard from mr toh, he maybe coming back wgssb next year
good to hear that, cos he is one of the main reason that stop us the interest from going back.
i might go back... WE may go back.
but .... hard to say again... PASSION... ~~ do we have it anymore? do I have it anymore?

found this when i am digging for my measurement notes.
declaration form! haha!
so cute


found novena... our syf piece..
but i cant find my 2nd clar's score~~



tonnes of memories that nth can replace..


ok.... it gonna b a busy sept for me..
firstly is the stupid dissertation that i'm stuck because of the interview thingy..
haizzzzzzz
den i m taking up kickboxing..
den now... i m going dancing with san, yf n yy... Jpop..
haha! seems to be a packed schedule..
n best part is.. i need to learn driving too!
den now... i maybe going back band..

so many things to do.. wats wrong with me suddenly...
but everything seems need to do..!
i need a plan.. a schedule.. baby help me!

Annoying Fruit

Back to sch but dun have the study mood yet..

Lecture is like soooOoooooo boring...

Dissertation is like shit.. waiting for reply for interviews... i m thinkin so hard what can i do other den just waiting for their replies... tonnes of busy peeps so they had no time to reply me.. i know!! but whats the pt of saying 'we need fresh grads' 'we encourage fresh grads' when u dont even want to help them score in order to get out of the sch with a better class? waiting and waiting... i have onli 1.5 months... if they stay this way i am going to curse them forever..

boring life.....

holding on to the laptop... trying to type but realise nth much is out...

den i was forcing my sis and baby to watch annoying orange... my sis is like saying why r ppl watching such annoying stuffs? i replied 'Life is stressful'.. and i strongly believes its true...

if there is another reason for me wanting to get out of this lion city, other than i am feeling like a minority here, will be life is of too fast of a pace for me.. i deserve a break after hardwork, bt i realise this is not happening here... a saddening in life.

a little orange n pasta to end...

i like this one!!

I lead a life with my own kind of happiness

i might not be rich, i might not be very smart, i might not be very pretty....
but i'm lucky cos i m normal, i am common, i am healthy.
i work hard, so that i do shine sometime and i cherish such moments cos they are not easy to come by and i am proud of myself.

i smile because i am happi...
i am happy because i owe lots of things ppl longed for unknowingly...
i have a family which in my say its a happiness to me
i have close friends... they are true.. we are connected...
i have a boyfriend, who we simply hearts each other with no other motives (I trust him... in a way i trust myself)
i study my way up to where i am now... own efforts..
i have mochi... my cute dog who loves my smell =>
i owe lots of clothes... shoes... bags... which go according to my mood.

so i MUST admit that i am RICH...
though it doesnt means cash or assets or stocks...
its another kind of wealth that not everyone can see..
sometimes.. blinded by the papers can b rather sad.....

of cos i dun mean that with that wealth in hand .. b able to feed me...
i still need to earn and save... for wat? to buy me other happiness or to enhance my current hapiness?
buy me holidays! buy me dinners with my dear friends...
all such... no cash ... doesnt happen...
in this present world now... money no matter in notes or assets.. u need it... don't pretend! no one hates money... the more the merrier!
but the combination of my kind of wealth and the money kind of wealth makes the different... it enhances the beauty of each other... just like foundation without blushes will nv b as pretty as foundation with shades of pinks from the blushes..

but... how many of us can actually grab hold of these 2 wealths? millionairs? i seriously doubt so.

Should b sleepin now

i got class at 9am later.. meaning i got to wake up at 7...
plus the class is at biz sch... further down.. needa shutter.. and i dun know the way well... n its a sectional class...
in all.... sum up to be...
I CANNOT BE LATE!!

train will be like so packed... still need to transite for 1 stop at JE.. which i hated to the core..
i will earn to get a car next time... i rather jammed in the road rather than being a human pancake...


i am still not sleepy now but i needa sleep.. if not i will dozed off in tt 3 hr of lesson later...
i hoped it will be interesting...
and i hope i wun be late... if not will b so paiseh walkin in in the middle of the class when everyone will be staring at u.... eeeeeeek....

and little mochi is sleepin so soundly in my room...
air con is cold... blanket-ed her up.




she is such an angel... only when asleep.. haa!

New bed

i have gonna myself a new bed... to level up myself so that little mochi can't step on my head when i am sleeping...
with this new item in the room, means i m a few hundreds bucks poorer...
watever...

i can now consider myself to b quite on track for my dissertation, though i still got quite alot more to go before i can end off with a final conclusion. so i canot let myself slack too much cos i know i will get lazy and stop doing..
i dun wan to rush like a cow later, cos i know there will b other projects coming, i canot just spend my time on the dissertation.

feel like puking just now...
but now feeling better.. after few rounds of viwawa wahjong with the fake koreans...


back to dissertation now...
and mochi is accompanying me at the side... though she is sleeping.. bt its nice to c her by my side... not so lonely in this lonely night.. she is shivering just now.. mayb my room's air con is too cold for her.. so i took a small blanket for her.. and she is sleeping soundly now.. she looks so cute...

being visiting pet shop alot recently.. hahaa! baby is like saying her stuffs are more expensive den his... haha! i agreed, but it can nv compare with the cost of a human baby...

and.. my forehead hurts

CLEANING

START CLEANING UP TOMOLO
VENUE: MY ROOM

A MUST DO...
JES PLEASE BE MOTIVATED
YOU ROOM IS DAMN DUSTY ALREADY!

it started again

my last sem is here... my final final last sem..

after so many years of lectures and tutorials.. i am finally up to the standard to be out working soon...

3 years of poly to now.. another 3.5 for uni... i can finally see my actual last sem coming after 6.5 years..!

but means wat?! my loan is comin... i m full of debt soon. =S

random!

mochi being a good girl sitting on my lap....

this is such an ugly sleepin position!

mochi need some lecture in this!

down~

jes is sick...
down

why must it wait till 4 days b4 the start of sem?
haizzzzz

nose blocked
blokkieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Finally someone out of nothing

for the past weeks i have been feeling depressed, because i cant get a proper dissertation out. how to write out a fell report when you cannot even dig out with an acceptable objective.. no objective, i am just doin the copy and paste from the net.. such a lousy D report... wat a shame to jessica..

but ya... sometime u just need to shout for help..
ask for it and you will be given...
so... when u need help just open ur big mouth... a few 'spoon feeds' wun kill u.. anyway.. he is just adding salt for u!
ya... i went to my prof.. and i screamed for help there...
and guess wat?! i got wat i wan...
a few pointers from him that enlighten my life (aka: a tea spoon of baking soda that yeast up my bread, if u wan to make it more lifestyle. )
yup so now....
i managed to write out 6500 words of quite meaningful stuffs + my calculation + my views ... mayb a C+ now? at least something that i wun throw jessica's face..

although i m quite on track now... i still cant slack..
i need to feel the devil run run run behind me...
after the sem starts, i gt so much other shit to do that i cant spend all my time for this dissertation.
everything is important so i need sufficient time for each... finished them up 1 by up.... like a vampire sucking out the blood one by one......... ~~~

i cant plan, doesnt mean i cant learn to plan...
i am learning now.... mayb for just a while...





SIDE~
This is mochi!
my dog...
she is just 4.5 months..
very noty.... purposely kind of dog...
she likes to sleep on my bed
likes to sleep beside me...
on my lap....

and most importantly.. i love her!

she can let me stay at home the whole day without calling bored...

more of mochi coming up

Current Wallpaper!

NEW~

i do like her new dance..

but she is so fit~~ so toned up... tts freak me off a little