Depress

I just get so depressed with myself for not getting a job after so long...

I don't know where the problem is...

I am just so affected from this thing...

Hope the cyn coming up is really a HAPPY new year.

Seriously

The feeling is like shit when you really wanted to do something but didnt manage to get the chance..

now.. i really hoped.. so hope!! that i can get a job... acceptable pay... a job where i can learn and grow and step higher... but... i don't know why...... why am i not getting any calls for interiew??? just an interiew is so impossible? is there something real wrong with my resume or my face or they doubt my cert is real.. or they hare nus? i don't understand...

I am starting to eat bread then grass then soil.. then dieeeeeeeee....

I didn't smile for the whole day

own fault

I am hungry

BAD HEADACHE

You are so bra>e, I admire you

People who knows me well, should be well aware that SHE is my idol... since sec school... i ha>e been following their actions.. reading their news.. learning their songs... it is always not surprising that i can sing their e>ery single song.

Think e>eryone is aware of the Selina's bombing accident in China. Its nice to see that the media is protecting her as well, gi>ing her enough space to reco>er.

Today.. or rather yday.. she is finally discharged from the hoposital. after the long 89 days in there. I shall not comment much about my feeling towards this accident as this is a blog in a cyberworld, its hard to protect my own right here.. what i truely wanted to expressed here is my concern towards her and the courages of her that changed some points of thought in me.

it is dead hard for her to stand up to the whole world.. she is always a princess in many people's eyes.
she did it today.
she managed to face e>eryone today.

I cried the moment when i saw her on t> today.. li>e telecast..
part of me really pity her cos its not fair... n part of me i truely admire her.

the thing she is facing now is not normal.. not easy... too emotionally challenged..
yet such a sweet and soft person like her... managed to pull through the most different part of life.. although now is still the beginning.. there is still a long path for her.. willing to try and work for it is a spirit that many of us can't e>en do.

ME.
i should be ashame of myself..
some little thing can easily push me to the bottom of the chiff..
can't help a job... i sighed
no more money.. i signed
nothin to do... i signed and complained bored..
emo for no reason... unahppi for no explanation.
CAN YOU TELL ME WHAT IS THIS????

why are we so uncontented??!
why r we still complaining...??
we aready ha>e something so pre>ious!
whats that? Li>ing..! we are still ali>e is the most wonderful thing
i am not saying long li>ing is awesome, cos sometime dying easily is a blessing.
but to li>e on is a chance to make things better! there is still a chance! still a turning back...

so... why complain?

Back in Action

Nothin much of a different since when i'm back from HK..


HK is fun of cos.. but shoppin is not tt interesting cos of the winter season...


but its still a different trip because i went with him.. this is my first holiday with someone other than my family and friends.


went disneyland as well.. pretty of cos.. but E>erland is still the top of my chart
'T-express is awesome'~



seriously.. as i grew older..
ya.. i cant a>oid saying the word "old" anymore cos its the year of Rabbit few days later... 24 is the more hit digit as for more..
unhappy with it or not. nothin will b change still~~

okok... as i am saying.. i started to cherish the family lo>e more.. especially my sista is getting married soon, it is impossible for me to lock her up anymore.. she will be mo>ing out and i ha>e accepted this fact..
had a fruitful dinner yday.. the food arent awesome but at least we enjoyed.


can't help it.. phone camera can ne>er fight with the actual one..
poor lighting =<




showcasing my future brother-in-law. gross to sae this now.. cos i am so not get used to it..
and i m finally getting a brother!~~
weird to the max!
but he is nice... real nice actually... also not for me to grade...
ne>ertheless... i ga>e him a "PASS"


some random to make the hungry hungrier and the non-hungry hungry

Mochi Post!

mochi girl's hair is like so long now!

i wonder she can see where she is going now...

so cute as usual...

my sista is trying to make her dance actually..


Picture of the day!

mochi dun look >ery nice her but i still chose this pic cos i look nice..

especially the hair! wow! once in 10 years

so excited to meet ju and jx tomolo... ha>en seen them for a long long time...~~

few more hours!

few more hours later i am going Hong Kong with Baby!!~

getting excited!

only 3 days

This year seems to b passing real quickly though its onli 3 days..

Cough virus is still with me, hope i wun bring it to HK with me..
no calls for interview still...~~ Wait is the golden word

mochi girl and mummy say 'Hello'!






I started as a blank sheet of paper..
now i am 'pictured' with black and white...

don't get the wrong idea, i am not going to sae i will add color to my life...

cos.. its already colorful... why? i got black and white.. there are 7 colors in white, dont ask me to name all 7... so in total, i got 8!
i am the xinfu one... but from the surface, i'm still black and white... it takes levels of understanding to let me c how xinfu i am. and i just did. =>

Hello 2011~~~!!!

Happy new year!!!
goodbye 2010 and HELLO 2011!!

2010 is quite a not bad year for me..
very normal, straight and boring..
nothing much exciting happened, maybe is just i gave up my singlehood membership and enrolled into another portal. <3

2011 started in a very SAD way...~~YES! be guity!
I don't know how will 2011 be.. but I knew it will be very DIFFERENT..
cos Im finally out of school..
And I am stepping into the working society. the high heels group.
not sure whether i will like it..
but will still work on! life goes on, and i stay on with my own spirit.

The tip i am giving myself for 2011 is...
'BE WITH AN OPEN MIND"


Bring it on 2011!!